Wonderful dream Pa.

Dad I dreamt about you two nights ago.

You walked into the room ,your were about 60 and you looked wonderful.

Big smile and big open arms for a hug.

It was quite unusual because In the dream I  knew your were dead yet it was ok for you to be there.

I have longed to dream about you pa ,so glad it has finally happened.Hope I see you more in my dreams.

When I have dreamt of others who are dead; in the dream: I usually don't know they are supposed to be dead, and have felt so sad when I wakened.

But this was different pa, I was so happy to see you and hug you and to be in your presence again and to see you whole again. yet I know it was a bonus as your are dead.

If you somehow made that happen ,if you came to me ,maybe because I am upset, thanks pa. it really helped me feel good,gave me strength.

I know this is crackers thinking , but grief and too much stress can make us a bit mad.:-) I am no exception.

I saw your tree the other day ,it is looking great,I imagine the soil has absorbed your ashes and you are now in the tree trunk the bark and in every leaf.it makes me feel happy.

As you always did/do pa,even when you were driving me nuts. I loved you and was proud to have you as my dad ,my pa, my beloved Father.