"The new normal"

All the children now have John's news.
I am working to keep a normal  routine for John and indeed for me.

John is sleeping more but the good thing is that he seems much more rested after thes leep

He was so utterly shattered and still trying to live a normal life before.I could see he was distressed.

He does not have to be a hero now.

A week today John goes back for his first injection. Please god everything is going according to plan.

I missed  a call from Ellie today ,she left a lovely message.They are heading off to France for a three week holiday which they both badly need. They have had all the worry of Maureen, Ellie's pregnancy and now John ,and that is just what I know about.I told Johnny to go off and chill.He was worried about going We don't usually see much of them and we don't want things to change that much ,not yet anyway.

Lara asked for our phone number on face book,she said she would ring, not easy for one so young.David is in China.

Penny had a nice long chat with her pa today.That was good for both of them

Philip is still a bit shook,but hopefully recovering, I told him I had cleaned everything in sight,one of my coping mechanisms,he said he had started cleaning his apartment and gone for a swim.

Sometimes a stressful event can be good for us ,from that point of view, we take more care of ourselves in order to cope.

Andrew is keeping in touch. Thankfully he is keeping an eye out for Philip too. He will spend time with Philip on Saturday and hopefully they will both spend some time with John , me too if it is after 4.00 PM.maybe doing some crosswords.I have my course on Saturday and Sunday so I am glad they boys are around.

I am so grateful that Andrew is close to us.It is reassuring to know he is there, even if we don't have to call on him. A&L are very close to John. They are also able to "keep the heed" in a crisis ,a bit like me in that respect.Does not mean we don't have our moments of sadness and fear.

I like this wisdom of Dalai Lama
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“If a problem is fixable, if a situation is such that you can do something about it, then there is no need to worry. If it's not fixable, then there is no help in worrying. There is no benefit in worrying whatsoever.”


I am remembering this each day.

Good things
My new camera came today and I have my new phone too.

Hopefully the boys will get them going for me at the weekend.

The whole series of West Wing arrived yesterday, A gift for John now we have the new TV.

That sun shone all day.

I got my hair cut.

I have enjoyed two long walks in the last two days.

I booked a facial for tomorrow.

I have two wonderful sons, three great step children.

I heard from Matthew.

John is feeling good.

We are alive today/


 We are blessed.

Everything is unfolding as it is meant to.