" the hits just keep on coming" a Few Good Men

I feel quite tired today I have been up since 5.00 am- made two soups and veggie stew.

Packed things up for the charity people to collect and repacked the desk as best I could for amazon.
John has ordered a walking stick which is fab,will make life much easier for him. I got my amazon voucher from the insurance people and have ordered my camera today.

The children all know now about John not being too well. It has been a very emotional time for all of us.
I went to Manchester last night to talk to Philip..I am remaining calm and managing to help them hear the news. All the children I have told have been visibly shook . As Steve said to Johnny when Maureen became very ill  "this is the new normal" tis true.

We all need time to adjust to it. I think it was right to tell the immediate family. I do feel better knowing I can talk freely to them.If I have to.

John is a good patient, giving up control to the medics,and allowing me to take care of him ,really just fetching and carrying things.

I am not sleeping well as John is up and down a lot. I might make up a bed on the couch tonight.

Look forward to our new beds coming as we will both have our own place and that means we won't disturb each other.Might be an idea when Philip takes the couches away, to get a couch like A&L's that can be made into a bed.



My aim is to stay in the now, and not make plans or think ahead too much.

Easier said than done, as sometimes I am planning a three month stay in France as soon as John is feeling better.

Truth is he may not feel like it.Travel is tiring, dad was just happy to be in his own surroundings when he was not well.

Hoping if we don't get to Castalla that everyone else will go and have fun and not worry about us.

I want to go, I think it will do us both good, but we need to take a day at a time and trust that everything is unfolding as it should be.

I am glad to talk to you blog,,,,helps me get things straight in my mind...and trust that all shall be well!