First post of the new year,from Glasgow

Happy new year ,people always wish this for each other ,it is nice and I hope it is a happy new year.
Christmas went well at Salford,Philip and Phil did the cooking and the entertainment,great food good company and wonderful gifts.
Boxing day we stayed on at Salford and the etap hotel.Andrew had breakfast with us then headed to Warwick. Then we all went on the tram to Media City and had a look round then had a coffee at the Hilton Hotel.It was good to get out and have some air.I felt sad,missed dad, we went back to Philip's and i cooked and the guys did crosswords.
Another saddness was that a young Asian man was shot on Christmas night ,a hate crime.We saw a group of festive looking young Asians as we got back to the Etap on Christmas night.
He was almost certainly one of them.So sad.
We travelled to Glasgow on December 27th and went straight to Xscape at Braehead to meet with all the Collins family. It was a special time for me,all of us I think.All the grandchildren who were in Glasgow came along.I was touched by that.
Matthew gave all of us cheques for £200, from the gas board.
They were going to pay £1000 towards dad's funeral,but as we had paid for it they shared it between all the people named in dad's will! Happy days.
I gave my siblings journals so they can write down their memories of mum and dad.
First review will be around dad's birthday in April
We have only been as far as Anniesland for our shopping.
We brought in New Year here at Kintillo with Sandra and Harry it was nice we talked about Mum and Dad. I was very sad at Hogmony but OK at "The Bells" on January 1st we had dinner at Sandra and Harry's with Julie Raph Scott and Rachel.It was a fab night we were all tired but we enjoyed the food and the good company.One day before New year Jackie and I helped Rebekka straighten out her flat and that was fun.Another day Sandra and i sorted out some of dad's things,tough thing to do but had to be done. I feel very happy staying at Kintillo ,feel close to dad here. I think I am doing a lot of good inner work,processing dad's death and coming to terms gradually with the changes still to come.I would love to be able to buy this house and dad's car and the Van,but I know it is just holding on in an unhealthy way. I have to let go...or is it unhealthy? what is wrong with feeling comfortable in your parents home? there are more questions than answers. The Royals and wealthy people continue on in family homes and i imagine that can be either a curse or a blessing.just depends on so many things/.