last day Castlenel

Hi blog,

such a lovely day here in Castalla!

Last day for us till April.

I have put the M&C posters into the framers and they will be collected by Phil in November.

60 euro for both. Good price.

John and I went for a coffee at the Argentina cafe ,best coffee and tostada in town.We bought some treats for the 5 O'clock as it is our last day.

Phil and John have done 90% of the cooking since everyone left, some really nice food being served up :-)

I have had a good rest and now just doing last minute things before we leave.

I have to make sure nothing is left in the fridges,as the Shannon development course on being a holiday letter,gave me some good tips, clean tea towels each year, clean towels, newly painted kitchen and bathrooms/toilets and empty clean fridges.

Don't leave things you think that folk might use,there is nothing worse than other people's left overs,half empty packets of this and that.I agree the first thing we do is chuck other people stuff out when we arrive at a new place.

Not easy to convince everyone of this though!

Back to reality tomorrow, Frank picks us up at 7 50 :-( .

Thursday morning John has an appointment at the hospital with Sam, for his next injection.
Friday he has another X ray.

The time away from all that has been a blessing, we have been in a nice bubble.

Hi pa, I keep thinking of you and missing you, the sunshine makes me feel emotional and the stained glass panel too.

It is so beautiful and will look stunning when it is fitted into a proper window.

I have been reading a book written by a woman who lost her sister to cancer, it is so sad, she goes to mystics of all kinds to try to get in touch with her dead sister, very sad.

Opens up the question again".will I ever see you again."  I know I won't and I hope I will.

Susan says that one day I will just know you are never coming back and I will not meet you again and that  I  will cry for days. Something to look forward to :-)

I could never see me going to try to talk to spirits ! I am too grounded to do that. Talk to you in" the blog " yes.

Talk to you at he "five trees" yes.

I have been looking at pictures of you to-day pa, you, mum, all the aunts and uncles, grandparents that have died now. It is ok, quite comforting, as long as I don't look at the ones of you in the last year or so,that is still too hard.


Ann Mole's son died the other day. Darren, he was very young,somewhere in between Andrew and Philips age I think.

Ann is a cousin that we saw a lot of when Sandra and I were very young.We used to go to Durham to visit Auntie Rose and Uncle Harry and Ann with you and mum.

The last time I saw her was when I was pregnant with Philip, but you and mum always kept in touch with her, met her son and daughter.Mum visited her a lot as her mum ,Auntie Rose, and dad Uncle Harry, died and she had no siblings.
The Hallidays were much more in touch with her.

In the last year I have been in touch with her on facebook.

 I have been in contact with her this week,and her pain is enormous pa,no one can imagie the pain you suffer when you lose your child,no matter how old that child is.Not unless you have been through yourself. Even then each death ,each loss is unique.

She is in my thoughts "blessings on her heart"  If there is an afterlife and Darren is there, give him a hug. pa !

Everything is as it should be,
nothing is as it seems.


All shall be well,
and all shall be well,
and all manner of things shall be well.

And so it is.