I went to the eye hospital on 12th December.It was a very tough day,three hours of tests and finally told I have Glaucoma in my left eye.I was/am totally shocked. My eyes have been blurring a bit, but I thought is was tiredness. I am being treated with tablets ,for a week,and drops for life. I will go back on 22/12 to see if the tablets have brought the pressure down. Fingers crossed.
I am very uncomfortable with doctors looking in my eyes,I did not do too well as a patient.Although I got better as time went on.I am also a dab had at putting drops in my eyes now.
I was a werck when I left,looked as white as a ghost and about 90.Andrew was coming round so i has a wash changed into my jeans out on some make up and felt a bit better.I told him all about it after we ate cakes and talked about Castalla and the Matt Collins window.He was very encouraging.I slet very well and went to work in Chester the following day and I was ok.Work helps.
I had coffee with anita and got some of her childrens books for the grandchildren :-)The yellow Sofa,just delightful.I am a bit worried about her she has been coughing for months.I cried a bit about my eyes and my beloved dad.Just can't stand that he is not here.Had a long chat with Susan and she talked about how it is for her having Christmas in Sydney without Gavin.Last year she came here. It is just so sad.
I made all my Christmas cards over the weekend,from cards I received over the last two years.It was good ,theraputic.I iced six small Christmas cakes and made more white chocolate and cranberries.
All my presents are here and i wrapped all of them too.,for Warwick Salford Scotland,and the London,Cambridge Australia ones have been posted.
Went to the Holly Bough service on Sunday 21st.it was beautiful.The Catherdal was packed out.The usher foud us two seats together.
We ahve watched two Christmas movies so far.I am going through the motions because I think it is right,never avoid,just makes it worst next time.But I feel like hiding and crying a lot the christmas carols break me up.I was not up to Beth's party on Saturday night,but it was nice to think of all the people in green red and silver clothes having fun.
I have had beautiful touching emails from far and wide ,people wishing me Courage.It helps.I feel cared for.Tonight we are going to Wagamama for food with A&L then to see Hugo.Hoping to feel some cheer.I have sewn all the buttons on Andrew's coat and have amazon stuff for him to take to Philip's on Christmas Eve,as well as candles and party poppers :-) must make an effort.Dad I love and miss you I will never forget you X
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