September

Hi dad,

John is being moved back from Clatterbridge  to Woolton Marie Curie. today I hope the next step is back home, but we will have to wait and see, continue to possess our soul and patience.

We have had a good weekend, Johnny was here on Saturday which give me the day off from visiting.

Some days John is up somedays down, and so far I find it hard to detach my self, I am very affected by his moods.

I can hardly believe we are moving into the last month of our blog. I said at the begining I would keep in up for two years, that will be up on October 5th.

I think of you daily, still, but it is not painful anymore, only very occassionally, I smile when I think of you and talk of you.

I want to write about you, young Matthew said he wished he had know you better, had gone to the van with you,I felt for him.
My two were so lucky, as were all five of us, we knew you in Argyle mode, we saw you doing all the things that you loved
to do.

I hope to write something about you for the younger ones, who did not get to know you so well.

Day'll come pa.

Love you always, your ever loving first born, Helen x

Andy Murray is Wimbledon Champion

Good news dad, you would have been thrilled, mum too.

We were in Castlenel when the final was played, so we did not see it. In fact I think I would have been too nervous.

Scotland is going mad, almost everyone is delirious. he can rest on his laurels now.

John is going for an X ray today, we hope to know what is causing the pain.Arthritis or cancer?

What ever it is John's needs better pain relief, he cannot walk, well, around the house ,a bit.

We have not been out since we came back from Alicante, I have of course, for shopping, a wee walk, but not socially with John.We have not been for a coffee or a glass of wine. I am struggling to come to terms with all this change. Sometimes I want to get on a plane and just go somewhere, away from all this stress, worry, and not least all the extra work.

My life has changed so much in this last few months. I have no time to myself, in my head or in reality, my life resolves around John's life.

I fear what the future holds.

I have got a livingsocial deal going on right now, hoping to have some workshops to run when I get back to Liverpool. A diversion for me, work!