What's it all about Jokes,,brain scan, tooth implants, teeth out!

Hi blog,

I am just about to head off the the park for a long walk, I am tired, thank goodness that I do not have so much on this week. I have finished now till Monday evening.

I had a brain scan last week to help out the glaucoma study, I was a bit scared to be going for the scan. I was worried I might be fearful in the scanner, but it was not too bad. I was not closed in.

I did all the exercises from inside the scanner,it was a lot of concentrating ;I felt shattered after it,I also felt pleased to have made my contribution.

Hoping that they do not find any problems there.
I ask them if they found anything that could not be helped, not to tell me, but it is outside of their hands, all the results go to Walton Hospital and any problems are sent to my GP. I went ahead anyway, I hope it help folk in the future,

It is such a pain not having your full sight, I miss it; and it does affect my enjoyment of reading .

I am grateful that they found it when they did though, and  that it will not get worse because of the eye drops.


I will need a tooth implant soon, apart from costing an arm and a leg, I am sorry that I need to have this,
I have been taking care of this lower middle tooth and the gum area around it, since I was 13 years old. I guess 51 years is long enough,I have done well; because of the gum problem I now need a tooth implant it is my only option.

When I was a young woman I was always complimented on my beautiful red hair and lovely white teeth.I always worried that I would not always have them and hoped people would notice something more permanent about me.

Well I now have white hair and my teeth are much older now, and life has gone on being good, and I am appreciated for my other qualities.

I am happy to be appreciated  by clients students, family friends.

And getting older is still a challenge.

John had to have some teeth out today, maybe all in time, maybe not? the treatment for the spots of cancer on his bones will be treated by something that will affect his teeth so he has to make sure he will have not problems to deal with in the next year, it will be John's call, the dentist recommends all teeth out.:-(

John had two teeth out today. he looked so vulnerable when he came home, the shock of having teeth out is always tough but at 81 it is very hard to go through and recover from.

I felt today that John was really ill.It brings it home when I see all this happening to him.
I feel quite emotional about John being ill, being 81, time is getting shorter for him for us.

I am very very grateful that we had our Silver Wedding Celebrations. and that our family and friends have marked it too.
We do not know how many anniversaries together that we have left---of course no one does.

As Bette Davis said "old age is no place for sissies"


I gather strength for you my dear pa, you showed such courage as old age and infirmity took it's toll on you.

I came across a lovely picture of you the other day while looking for one of Matthew. It was heartbreaking to come across it unprepared, you looked to alive so real so there.

I am just deep down tired from all the challanges that life is giving us.

I took courage and cancelled our Christmas in Salford and new year in Cambridge.

I was worried people would be upset, but the opposite is true,Phil and the boys have been great, very supportive. Phil organised Christmas in Liverpool with in an hour of my email.

Penny and co too, although I know she is disappointed, but I need to think about us for now ,maybe for the rest of our time together, John's needs our needs will have to come first.. I have had such a supportive email form Lara that I almost cried. She understands our need to be here in our own space around Christmas and New Year.

I do not know her at all,not really, but she took me by surprise by her warmth and empathy,gave me her number to call any time I need to talk.How lovely that was; even if I never do.

I have been posting silly jokes, just one or two a day, it cheers me up and gives other people a laugh too.I need that outlet

.Anita is ill, her sister in law died a while back ,and she is grieving too.

I am really worried about her.

Anne and Henry were here on Monday what joy that was, but ,Henry has been so ill and looks quite failed. Anne has him to care for and worry about,him  and at 74 she still has a very old and difficult mother to worry about too.


It is all part of life's rich pattern, we are in the age group now, when we and our friends are ageing and we are and getting frailer, more vulnerable.



I am much younger than John Anne Henry Anita of course, but I still feel the difference, less energy  is the most annoying thing,I think I can do more than I actually can.

You always know this time will come but nothing can prepare you for the reality of it.

So I share jokes, I look for things ,events, people to be grateful for, I try to keep life simple.

I am doing OK. I am more reflective these days,  I had such plans after dad died, things we would do once I recovered from his loss, but it was not meant to be,now we take a day at a time and monitor John's condition

So my pa, my dear much missed pa,that's the story from Balimory :-)

Don't worry, pa,I am ok, lots of good things going on, Matt and Marie are coming in the new year, Gary and Wendy are talking about it too.
We still have celebrations going on , we are having  day out with Philip on Friday ( John willing) and David and Lara are coming on Sunday.

People want to join in the 25th celebrations and that is wonderful!

I have planned a Christmas Party, two actually ,one for students and one for friends.

We have a nice Christmas concert coming up too.

I feel more like it now,as we know we are here in Liverpool for the whole festive season.


All shall be well
and all shall be well,
and all manner of things shall be well.
Amen.

Peace to the north
Peace to the south
Peace to the east
Peace to the west
Peace be without, peace be within.
Peace peace peace.
And so it is,