Today I felt unbearable sad,hear some beautiful poems on Radio 4 ,one read by dear Ellie.
I was hoping to go to the Anglican Cathedral for the 10.30 service but I was unprepared for how bad I would feel today.My sorrow runs very deep.
Jenny has been in touch to say they are all getting ready for John's Lightbody family party.I am so glad and so grateful to them. I love this Lightbody family especially Jenny Robert and David.
Next week we go to Glasgow for the party on Friday night and the scattering of dad's ashes on Saturday morning.I am sure that by then I will have found my inner strength by then,
I hoped to be with dad at Christmas this year. I have managed to get some shopping done for Christmas but not able to think about what to do on the day.
Christmas eve is normally my favourite day of the year,not sure how it will be this year. I will of course, go through the motions and hope to get intouch with some of the joy and some of the hope.
I feel like a knotless thread,a favourite expression of mum's " hinging aboot like a knotless threed!Tomorrow is another day,just hide under the douvet and let this day wash over me.
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