Hi blog,
Anita's dear friend and sister-in -law died very suddenly last week.
I had tea with Anita in Lark Lane today. The whole family are so shocked and sad.
I seem to be hearing of more people around my age who are seriously ill or have died or are dying.
I suppose it is the age I have reached.
Anita asked when we would have out inheritance, I said we had it,she asked how much ,and when I told her how much we all got.
She was so amazed and kept saying well done your dad!
I felt very proud of him. Well done indeed Pa X
Anita told said" don't splash it around" and she is right. This is a great opportunity to have financial serenity ,till the end.
We are so used to managing on such a small amount of money that it is unlikely that we will do anything silly with it.
A few things to make Ullet Road more comfortable and a few things in Castlenel.
Apart for that, enjoy life , because we just don't know when the end will come.
Our tastes are quite simple nowadays.
I remember reading about Alex Haley ( is that the name of the guy who wrote Roots?)
He became a millionaire almost overnight, at quite a late age, he said he was old enough for it not to go to his head or change his lifestyle too much. I liked that, he was a generous man but a contented man before he had the money.
I would like to visit Prague,and maybe John and I will go for our silver wedding.
I think we have had enough parties for a while.
I like going out with my boys and Lucy for a meal, just simple pleasures.
And with my friends too, but not all at the same time.
Might have a party for my 70th,if I live that long. then I will hang up my Tiara
Would like to spend more time in Castlenel , maybe concentrating on my writing, and being creative, rugs, mosaics. Still no focus since dad's death.Day'll come hen ,as my dear grandpa used to say.
Had a wonderful and emotional time in Glasgow Inveraray with Sandra, mostly.
Went to Inveraray on a stunningly beautiful day, the van looks fabulous, the loch look stunning too and the mountain.What a beautiful country we all hail from.
We took a dozen roses to mum's grave ( where her ashes are) and we visited Dalnotter to see Ma and PA's names in the book of remembrance
It was good to do it with Sandra ,we were able to support each other ,cry and laugh together,and we both feel we won't do anymore of that for a good while.
Dad is still tangible in Glasgow and Inveraray. It just open me up and I feel the loss so powerfully there.
Yet he was ready to go,he had had enough, he came home to Kintillo to die, we feel sure of that now. I think at an unconscious level people often make that choice,to leave,it is their time, they have made a peace with their death.
I feel I am gradually coming to terms with that fact of my own death. It is easier sometimes to think of my own passing than the passing of people I love.
Grief is making me philosophical ! Sandra too I notice.
All shall be well,
and all shall be well
and all manner of things shall be well.
Wednesday, 18 July 2012
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