sad day

Today I opened my emails to find 36 K is on the market.
I was surprised at my reaction. I could not stop crying.Such a shock,even though I knew this was coming.
It is a good advert and it had only been on the market two hours when Sandra got a call to say we have a viewing for Saturday at 11am. Of course my head tells me this is a good thing.My heart and my gut feel very different about it.
As Jackie said today"it will be a blow when the house is no longer ours" indeed it will.
Jackie has asked me to if I would be there on the morning of her wedding to help her get dressed.
I feel really happy about this as I do not have a daughter to share a day like this with.I feel sad too that mum and dad will not share this day.
I helped her pick is wedding flowers when I was there in January a treat for me.I suggested that although the theme of the wedding is Scottish that it might be good to have something to represent Geoff's English-ness.She agreed and there will be white roses :-) the verse on the invitation reflects this too.
Matthew and Marie are not coming this weekend. I suspected this ,Marie is really not well yet.I can see Matthew wants to do something to cheer her up. It will happen at the right time. I may got up there for a few days if she does not improve soon.
I feel completely shattered tonight and my eyes are sore with crying.I hope for a good nights sleep and to feel refreshed in the morning.The Muppet's are on at Fact,maybe we can go tomorrow afternoon it would be cheerful.I want to renew my Fact membership and book romantic anonymous for Valentine's day.
Love you dad!